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[shimizudan]

Normally I don't regret things, but maybe that's changing now.

I was released from the hospital about 6 months ago.

I tripped on some of the pots and pans today and bruised my knee.

What have I accomplished by staying alive?

Comments

[gundog.livejournal.com]

hell is that? you aint the type to trip



so lemme get this straight so im clear: you regret comin outta the hospital?

[shimizudan]

Not really. I don't think I'd accomplish much if I stayed in bed at the hospital. More than that.

[gundog.livejournal.com]

oi tht aint what i mean

[gundog.livejournal.com]

im talkin like if you regret not havin kicked it at the hospital

[shimizudan]

Nothing's changed since then.

[gundog.livejournal.com]

yeah i gather that

goin back to the original thing: the hell'd you've accomplished by bein dead?

[shimizudan]

hm.

[shimizudan]

Maybe Gau wouldn't have been hurt.

[gundog.livejournal.com]

yeah? funny that cause i think he wouldve gotten hurt even worse

[shimizudan]

I've made too much paper. It's becoming boring.

[gundog.livejournal.com]

dodgin the issue, huh? fine by me


you wouldntve made a damn thing if you were dead cept a fucking mess. you got less potential as a dead idiot than you do as a live one

[shimizudan]

Have you remembered yet?

[gundog.livejournal.com]

got a couple more pieces but more like it makes less sense

aint bad when you dont remember any of it, but this half-assed memory

[gundog.livejournal.com]

just pisses me off thinking about it

[shimizudan]

I thought this empty feeling was from the stab wound, but it's healed now and I still feel..

[gundog.livejournal.com]

yeah, i know

stop focusing on it

[shimizudan]

I know I must have had a good reason to sever those bonds.

[gundog.livejournal.com]

know you did. aint no "must have" about it.

[shimizudan]

Mm.

[gundog.livejournal.com]

i don't even gotta question it. known you since you joined kairoushuu. you wouldnt make a decision like that without a solid reason. same goes for me, but...

[gundog.livejournal.com]

ah, forget it

[shimizudan]

Sempai... That was kinda cool.

[gundog.livejournal.com]

yeah yeah yeah shut up

[kirasuke.livejournal.com]

....

You're alive, aren't you?

[shimizudan]

I am.

[kirasuke.livejournal.com]

So you figure it out.

[shimizudan]

I wouldn't ask you.

[kirasuke.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't either.



Probably.

[shimizudan]

Do you want me to ask you something, Yoite?

[kirasuke.livejournal.com]

No.

[kirasuke.livejournal.com]

But asking other people to define your purpose is meaningless

[shimizudan]

So is telling them I bruised my knee.

[kirasuke.livejournal.com]

There are ice packs in the freezer.

[shimizudan]

Thank you.

[kirasuke.livejournal.com]

.......

[wlkingdisaster.livejournal.com]

I'm sure you've accomplished more than you think you have!

[shimizudan]

No, I have certain things I need to do and there hasn't been any progress on them. It's a little disheartening.

[wlkingdisaster.livejournal.com]

I can understand that. You kinda feel like you're stuck.

[shimizudan]

Partially, yes.

[volatileclone.livejournal.com]

Living.

[shimizudan]

It didn't take much effort.

[volatileclone.livejournal.com]

It shouldn't have to.

[meguro]

I don't think your remaining alive is something to regret, Raikou-san.

[shimizudan]

[shimizudan]

Thank you.